New Developments!
30 Mar 2010 2 Comments
in Personal, The Tavern, Unique Photography, Unique Specialties
Well there has been some new developments around this blog, The Tavern and my personal SL life. lol. I have situated the Tabs above. The Tavern and Unique Specialties are my own businesses, that I co-own with Toria Reggiane. The Business tab holds businesses on The Tavern’s land or I’m part of in some way or another, or they are a friend’s business.
Lets get personal out of way first. Mainly because I really need to just some things off my chest. So… for the past 6 – 7 months, I’ve been in love with this guy. Told me right off the back that he didn’t want a relationship. However, as our friendship grew, we became really close and I fell for him. Slightly later he started feeling the same way for me. So, we were friends in love… really nothing more. Nothing ever official. I had hope that it would become more than just friends, because, face it. When you love someone and I mean really love someone, you want more than just friendship. You want the real deal, the right to say that you are an item. Togetherness. Well… it never happened. Yes… yes I was happy, but it wasn’t the happiness that I really wanted. It wasn’t the retard happy that you get with a relationship, the retarded happy that you get with just anyone. I wanted that retarded happiness that I get with saying someone who I love is with me and willing to take the chance to get with me. Through the good, the bad, the pain, the tears, the happy smiles, and all that jazz that comes with the horrors/unimaginable of a relationship. Mainly because he didn’t want it. Loved me… but didn’t want a relationship. He held himself back from it. So… last week… finally sat down and we had a talk. I asked if I should forget the idea of ever being together. In a way… I knew he would say yes. We just weren’t close in SL but RL too. We know that want I wanted was SL and RL. He couldn’t trust with RL. Which… in all honesty was fine with me. We could have worked towards it. I was asking for a lets jump on the band wagon and start singing river songs. No… I’m not that much of dreamer. I’m just not. I was willing to wait for that… I’m not sure if he ever realized. I was willing to wait on his terms but the unknowing if the wait was going to lead to a solid relationship or not… was killing me. Sometimes I think… maybe if I’d know if everything was going to lead to an actually relationship I wouldn’t have gone wonky on him so many times. But… in all reality it was my fault. He said from the start he didn’t, wasn’t looking, wasn’t interested in a relationship at all. I decided to wait for him. I have no regrets in doing it at all. I tired to push something on him that he had no interest in. So… now we are just friends. Nothing more than that. I’m having a really hard time and more than enough times I’ve woken up and wanted to take everything back. Everything that I said and just stick myself in the same position as I was in. I love him… very very much. I don’t want to let go of the love I have for him at all. I guess it’s time tho. He won’t come around, he won’t let himself… even if he wants to.
Onto a happier note with The Tavern and Unique Specialties. If you notice under the Businesses tab, there is a new page. Unique Photography!! Yup, there is now a photographer studio at The Tavern. Run by Ren Hinterland. He has a team of 2 other photographers another with a model. His pictures alone with his photographers are unique. If you look at Unique Photography’s page you will see the rates of him and his photographers along with his model. If you also notice Unique Photography is called that because it is direct link off of Unique Specialties. When Toria and I get our shop up and going, selling things and such. When we are able to get on our toes and get the word out. We will be doing Theme Weddings as it’s stated under the Unique Specialties tab. Ren and his team will be our own little photography team for the weddings. 
Til than… keep looking for more updates here! Do it… you know you enjoy this.
